who I am or the person I want to be

Hey guys!! I haven't posted in awhile, but I want to keep y'all updated on my plans for the next couple of months.

I am in my hometown, Statesboro, Georgia, for a few months. I am living with my amazing parents and getting certified to be a yoga instructor. I have been doing yoga for the past two years and I want to grow further in my passion for yoga. I want to show people how yoga can be so much more than just a work out. Yoga isn't just for a certain age group or size. Anyone can do it and that is why I love it. I can't wait to learn more about the different types of yoga and clear my mind for a few months. It's gonna help me open up my heart so much. After that, I am looking to move back up to Nashville!!!! 

I miss Nashville so much and it hasn't even been a full week. I just love everything about the city and the people I love there. You really don't know how much you love something until you leave it. I hope to move back to Nashville and find a Yoga Instructor part time position, then work on my photography the other part of the time. 

 

I did a small intimate self portrait to try to express my feelings over the past few weeks. As you can see, I'm only wearing a sweater and small cami that is pulled down. I have found I am most comfortable in less clothing. I just get infatuated with how everyone has different bodies. We put our bodies through so much. They heal on the outside, but we may never know if the person has a healed soul... I have gone through a lot of changing and I don't know if my soul has fully healed from certain areas of my life. 

So preparing for my senior show, finals, interviews, and moving was a lot of stress on me. For the people who know me, I am a very happy person most of the time, but stress and small things can really bring me down. I try not to show it and just move on with life. I tried to spend a lot of my time with my close friends the weeks before I left Nashville. I had a certain situation that happened the last day in Nashville that made me feel like I hadn't been fully living my life the way I wanted. I strive to live this exciting, adventurous, open-hearted life and be this genuine person, but I just didn't feel like I was. My friends are so amazing and they deserve so much more than me being there for them only part of the time. I want to be present and fully awake every day. I take so much of this life for granted. I want to spend it with people who mean the most to me. Not people who are just passing through, grabbing what they can from me, and leaving me with not much of anything.

I believe in God. I believe in talking to Him about everything. Even the sins you don't understand why are sins. I believe in loving people the way that He loved us. I believe in giving everyone a chance. I wish more people in our world believed that. I just think love and relationships are so more important than religion. 

I am on my path to figure out who I am and where I'm going. I have to keep telling myself I am only 20. Tomorrow isn't promised, so live every day fully awake. I decided a long time ago I wouldn't live a life regretting not traveling enough, not learning new things, not loving enough people, not growing real relationships with people. 

That's a little dose of who I am or who I want to be.. Come back soon for new photography!! I promise I will post more. 

See ya Nashville in a few days!! 

 

Mary Lee Palmer3 Comments